( the answer never comes, and that's when aventurine realizes neither will it. he stills his hand, holds his breath - not for any deep reason other than that it's hard to believe someone would feel comfortable enough in his presence to let all their guards down like this. nevermind topaz does, every night, when they share a bed together. she knows him, and has no choice but to trust him for this. for kirma, he's just a stranger.
his fingertips hover over soft cheek, carefully, both the ghost of a feeling so that his presence is never remembered or acknowledged, and out of fear that any abrupt movement would wake kirma. at the very least, aventurine can let his façade die, his constant smile disappearing off his face. it's easier for him to talk and wear a mask, so he can pretend to be someone else.
anyone else would deserve to be in his position far more than himself, really.
his lips are gentle when they meet kirma's cheek, a soft kiss that no one will remember. perhaps an unspoken gesture of gratitude. most likely a quiet apology. aventurine unwraps himself from the hand barely around his waist and leaves the room just like that, the door quietly closing behind him, and if kirma's lucky enough, all of it will have been just a dream. )
sighs.
his fingertips hover over soft cheek, carefully, both the ghost of a feeling so that his presence is never remembered or acknowledged, and out of fear that any abrupt movement would wake kirma. at the very least, aventurine can let his façade die, his constant smile disappearing off his face. it's easier for him to talk and wear a mask, so he can pretend to be someone else.
anyone else would deserve to be in his position far more than himself, really.
his lips are gentle when they meet kirma's cheek, a soft kiss that no one will remember. perhaps an unspoken gesture of gratitude. most likely a quiet apology. aventurine unwraps himself from the hand barely around his waist and leaves the room just like that, the door quietly closing behind him, and if kirma's lucky enough, all of it will have been just a dream. )