( what a dangerous thing to say, and worse still, aventurine can find the irony in this. that kirma gives him permission for something rougher, bloodier, the weight of feelings questionable but comfortable enough that aventurine doesn't mind indulging - yet still, just moments before had kirma denied him the same. had he been saner, he would have mused the possibility of them being much the same, welcoming that kind of treatment but denying giving it to others.
he won't think about that just yet. he won't think about much at all, when all those predator instincts flare up inside his body and it's harder and harder to make logical decisions.
it's much easier to push kirma down; to the side, where there's room, where he can be properly underneath him. it's a narrow, uncomfortable fit that aventurine can't find will to care, too focused on making sense of the feelings inside of him. instincts that don't belong to him, that tell him to claim what is rightfully his, that if he doesn't eat kirma, he will be the one eaten instead. )
You're making it hard for me, ( harder to keep his composure, harder to manage that light-hearted, easy-going tone. the way his tail wags behind him confesses to how excited his body, at the very least, is about this. ) Will you forgive me if I'm not too kind?
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he won't think about that just yet. he won't think about much at all, when all those predator instincts flare up inside his body and it's harder and harder to make logical decisions.
it's much easier to push kirma down; to the side, where there's room, where he can be properly underneath him. it's a narrow, uncomfortable fit that aventurine can't find will to care, too focused on making sense of the feelings inside of him. instincts that don't belong to him, that tell him to claim what is rightfully his, that if he doesn't eat kirma, he will be the one eaten instead. )
You're making it hard for me, ( harder to keep his composure, harder to manage that light-hearted, easy-going tone. the way his tail wags behind him confesses to how excited his body, at the very least, is about this. ) Will you forgive me if I'm not too kind?