( ... ugh. this moment is a crossroads, one they have yet to broach in this lifetime. at the same time— it feels not unlike staring down the barrel of a gun he's stared down a hundred times before, an imevitable catalyst he is all too familiar with accepting the import of.
and that's why, after a long and silent pause, he lays his hand within esi's. with this link between them established, he also walks them both towards the bed, expecting esi to follow. it seems the most comfortable venue for what's about to be a very uncomfortable situation, though every heavy step may as well be towards the grave.
on the edge of the mattress, he sits. looking up at esi from here, he recalls their time the gardens, and it only makes the leaden weight in his chest sink further. )
Do you really think this will accomplish anything?
( an appeal to reason that he isn't sure exists at all. not when esi has that look in his eye, even though it's not one he's ever seen before. the memory that comes to mind is a mystery that will have to wait. )
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and that's why, after a long and silent pause, he lays his hand within esi's. with this link between them established, he also walks them both towards the bed, expecting esi to follow. it seems the most comfortable venue for what's about to be a very uncomfortable situation, though every heavy step may as well be towards the grave.
on the edge of the mattress, he sits. looking up at esi from here, he recalls their time the gardens, and it only makes the leaden weight in his chest sink further. )
Do you really think this will accomplish anything?
( an appeal to reason that he isn't sure exists at all. not when esi has that look in his eye, even though it's not one he's ever seen before. the memory that comes to mind is a mystery that will have to wait. )